chasing the sun

For all intents and purposes I would say that I believe in God. I don't know how to prove it or how to explain why I do, I just know that this world would be a lonely place if there were no God. I've been thinking a lot about life these past few months...about the existence of it and the progression of it. I have come to no brilliant conclusions and I have no scientific studies to back up any remarkable discoveries. I just know that life is quite definitely planned. It has to have a source because life creates life...there must have been life before we came on the seen...Jesus says "I am the way, the truth, the life..." God is the source.

That said and understood (hopefully), I then wonder how we could be so deceived in thinking that this creator and source of life could ever be completely fathomed and understood. People try to figure Him out in lists and formulas that describe and define Him. They reduce Him to doctrine and words on a page.

And so it seems He is intangible and aloof. He no longer draws near to His people. He no longer interacts as a person with His beloved. And people begin to forget Him. We forget His word is law and life. We forget His love and His mercy and His judgment and wrath. And we carry on with our lives pursuing the dreams we have created for ourselves in our forgetfulness. We raise up and pray to other gods (money, power, pleasure) and worship ourselves.

Only, our problems cannot be solved with formula, methodology, or even theological systems. Problems are solved and worked through in relationship with God and others who follow God. The messy stuff of life is where we find our freedom from idol worship and self-absorbance. In caring for others, we lose ourselves and learn to love without condition or hesitation. It is hard to admit need and dependence, especially when the person we need most is not bodily present. But He has empowered others to serve in that capicity, to love us in flesh the way He loves us in Spirit.

And so ends this incomplete thought. I don't really know where it will end up, but I am excited by the possibility of finding out.