I tried all day to write something brilliant, but almost nothing came. What little that did come was rubbishy stuff I’ve been mulling over for the last 48 hours while I tried to purge my conscience of the guilt I was feeling at having exploded in a bratty tantrum on Saturday. Long story short: I had to apologize to my crazy, but well-meaning downstairs neighbor for stomping on the floor trying to get him to turn down his damn stereo.
And tonight, well, I’ve been doing laundry, watching television, learning to play a new song on my guitar and avoiding the homework that I absolutely have to finish. Maybe I’m rebelling against not getting a Spring Break this year for the first time in my life…who knows. I’ve also been reading everyone else’s blogs, searching for inspiration, hidden wisdom of ages that might possibly be revealed in all their musings….hmmm…
Maybe this will be one of those nights that I stay up late or don’t sleep at all; then I’ll turn on my closet light, which quite adequately serves as a reading light, and curl up with “A World History of Christianity” (ed. Adrian Hastings). I’ve been reading about the Christian history of Africa…mostly concerning Ethiopia so far. I figure the writer of that particular chapter wants to get all the African countries mentioned in the Bible out of the way first: Egypt…Ethiopia…(is Eritrea in the Bible?)
Maybe I’ll spend hours thinking about God and the future and what the hell I’m supposed to do with my life…or how that is an absurd question because I should just make a freakin decision, but then I’ll remind myself that I feel paralyzed when faced with more than one option.
Okay, this is getting ridiculous…I’m really going to do my homework now….REALLY!!!
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i'm jenn. i'm 30 years old and still trying to figure out what i want to be when i grow up. i'm open to suggestions...
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Jenn - you are a Gem! You know I think it's good to hang out with people on days like those - all nighters with searching, comfort and soul. But you got your Lord hanging out with you all the way through. x
It's okay to not have anything profound to say. I mean, I have been blogging for months now and still haven't come up with anything. It's okay. Maybe it's good to do homework.
p.s That book sounds sweet. I have a feeling the last chapter speaks about how Jesus lives in South Africa. Cape Town to be exact. I hear he has a nice little bungalow on Clifton Beach next to Bill Cosby's.
hi jenn. i'm writing because i really like the word "mulling." i'm mulling over a past conversation, would you like some mulled cider with your danish?, i just think it's a really good word. glad you used it.
anyway, i've been mulling over it, and i think if you use the word in any homework assignment, you'll ace your classes for sure. it's just so good.
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