chasing the sun

It has been way too long since I updated this silly thing. I wonder if maybe you’ve given up reading.

Ah, well…so much has happened since I last wrote. My life has changed so much. God is crazy, y’all. Anyway, I’ve totally ditched law school to throw my lot in with a group of revolutionaries from Africa…and Nebraska. Seriously, I’m now a bona fide employee of Africa Revolution – an almost official non-profit organization based out of Chicago. And so, in a few weeks I will be moving back to Windy City to join my co-conspirators, Allan and Evangeline.

I went to Africa, expecting to help, not to get sucked in, but who can resist the need? Not me. I had spent all those months applying to law school and getting rejected and accepted and had signed all the necessary papers and then I went to South Africa. And suddenly I didn’t want or need what I had thought I wanted or needed. It was something entirely new and wonderful and something of which I could be a necessary part. Everything just kind of fell into place. I love it when that happens.

So, now I’m in Houston for a few more weeks, then I’m on my way to Chi-town.


The past few days I’ve been thinking a lot about the things I truly want. I’ve been thinking about family and community and I’ve been trying to figure out why I always leave just when things are becoming fun and interesting.

God keeps me constantly dependent on Him these days – for money and the future and tech support (I’ve been having issues with my new computer – don’t ask - Grrrrr!!). He wants to be first and I keep shoving Him lower and lower on my list of priorities. For the first time in a long time, I wanted to read my Bible today. I wanted to hear God’s voice. No matter what He would say, gentle or harsh, I wanted to feel loved by Him today and no one else. I think He must give me these reprieves from cynicism and hostility. Days when he just strokes my hair, tells me I’m special and pretty and sets a big moon in the sky just so I can stare up at it.

I feel more dependent than I have in a long time, but instead of getting more and more anxious every day, I am resting in the unknown. Freaky, I know. I’m thankful for my old friends and my new friends and my dirty car and my broken computer. Life is messy right now and I’m thoroughly enjoying it.

Grace and peace.